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Do I have to insult you to get a response?

I know I have touched upon this topic before, but I am still curious about it as I still have not found an answer to it.
Why is it that it seems that I have to insult people to get them to react to what I say or write? Do not get me wrong, I find it amusing to play the devil’s advocate now and then, but do I really need to do ad hominem attacks to just get a reaction?

I have almost 300 followers on Twitter and about 40 to 60 people having a look at my blog daily; but only a very few responds to me. Is my writing really that awful and boring that no one cares, or is it so well crafted that it would be an insult to try to comment on it? What am I overlooking here?

I have tried it a few times, being very insulting and it just results in some people being very upset and starting a useless and tedious debate that has no purpose at all with me; and me having to tell them I am playing the devil’s advocate and they need to shut up.
If my writing is so horrible I would very much enjoy some helpful and constructive criticism. If you got nothing but shit to say you can sod off!

HST never endorsed it, but he said that drugs and alcohol worked for him.
Maybe not that successful if I do it too often I guess; or as openly as he did.

2010: 02/08
POSTED BY: xen
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Hey, Australia; if you do not like it, leave it!

NewsComAu writes:

It’s a symbol of Australia’s fighting spirit. Now the Boxing Kangaroo is at the centre of an international incident, with the International Olympic Committee ordering it taken down from the Winter Games athletes’ village in Vancouver.

It is kind of ironic.
Some Aussies (not all of course!) tend to tell immigrants and other non-Australians to ‘love it or leave it’, verbally or with classy bumper stickers; they even go so far to tell people to ‘fuck off, we’re full’. Now it seems that the table has turned.

“They’ve said that it’s too commercial because it’s a registered trademark. It’s a harmless thing that’s a bit of fun (and the Aussies) have refused to take it down.”

Maybe these athletes, that are role models, should recognise they are in a foreign country and that they should respect the ruling of IOC. They ask people to respect their ways when people come to Australia, but they are unwilling to act respectfully when they visit another country? Is that hypocrisy I smell, with a nice sprinkle of double-moral?

I could not careless if this happened in Australia, because it is their country, but they are in another country and if they have so high demands for non-Australians, they should have similar high demands for themselves when they are abroad.

I will be following the comment section closely today to see what people have to say about this.

2010: 02/05
POSTED BY: xen
CATEGORY: Dissidence
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Your biggest mistake is to take my writing seriously.

What has amused only me is that some people take my writing a bit too seriously. It is even mor funny when people who know me take it too seriously. You would assume people who knew you would understand when you are being serious or when you are just being a bit crazy. It is kind of assuming that the author of ‘American Psycho’ wrote that book based on wishful thinking. Now that would be crazy, right?
If I got an Australian dollar for each time I was appraoched by someone asking me about what I have written I could probably go out for dinner a bit more often with Lizzie. If only people also gave me that dollar each time.

It has kind of made me, I think, made me understand what Hunter S. Thompson meant when he said that ‘ he did not know if I were to act like himself or the persona from his books’. Who should I really be? Should I be the real me or should I be xen? I know who would get me in more trouble and alienate people. Maybe I should let xen seep into reality, but I need to keep reality far away from xen; can not let that guy get more boring, right?

Writing is kind of like a direct access to my brain and my thoughts. Most of it is unfiltered and can shock you. The real me try to keep this chaos in control so it will not have a bad effect on my real life; but I am not sure for how long I can hold it back. Should I hold it back; should I just realise it all and see what happens?

This is what I love about the writings by Thompson and Nietzsche, they just wrote what they felt and would not give a shit what any one else thought about it. If someone did not like it, well, that was that persons problems, not theirs.

I can only hope this is step closer to understand what the true way of Gonzo is.

Better to write for yourself and have no public,
than to write for the public and have no self.

2010: 02/04
POSTED BY: xen
CATEGORY: Random
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How many days?

It is odd to think about that I have not written anything in this blog for two days. I almost considered living up to the old ‘three is a charm’, but I should not do it, or else I will probably forget how to write.

I do not feel like, nor do I think it is important, that I go into detail why I did not write anything the last couple of days. Let us just say I had a few bad days, like everyone else have now and then in their life. Not so uncommon when you have been unemployed for such a long time.

Being unemployed for such a long time have made me more evasive and have a stronger urge to be reclusive than outgoing.

While I am unemployed and looking for work I could spend it improving my writing skills, but I only wish. Instead I might try to do some volunteering to act like I am doing something more productive than living and old childhood dream. I have already given up on music, so why not also give up on becoming a writer?

I can only hope that my actions lately will secure me a job within this month. Of course, I can not promise I will like it, but I will pretend to smile when I get it and smile even more when I get my pay for pretending liking my job.

When the temperature drops I will rush out to finally ride my bike again. It is far too warm for me to enjoy riding my BMX at the moment. It helped a lot riding around for an hour or three. Feel the wind in my face, forgetting everything and just enjoying cruising around.

Next two days I might publish two pre-written articles, just to relax and be able to not feel forced to write something.

Live long and prosper.