After having a look at the our bank account this weekend I was filled with fear. I just saw everything falling apart in front of me. Not being able to study, not getting a job and then having to go back to Norway or Sweden as I couldn’t keep this charade going for much longer; pretending everything will be fine and acting all delusional.
The morning didn’t start any better when Lizzie rushed in to the bedroom after my alarm had gone off, being all nervous about our bank account reaching nil in probably less than a week. Still in a morning daze I by instinct told her everything will be fine and tried to remind myself who I am and where I am; which is a normal morning routine for me since I can remember.
After Lizzie left for her volunteering job I started to wake up and reality kicked in, again. Yes, we almost have no money left and we are both unemployed. Centrelink barely gives Lizzie any money and I’m not entitled to any help at all my first two bloody years in this country.
I ended up just surfing aimlessly online. Not being in the mood for watching a film or anything for that matter. Didn’t even feel like writing a ranting and raving article in my blog. In all desperation I posted a cry for help on reddit. After doing that I went back to looking at random stuff online, walking around the apartment like a mad man. Luckily I’m an introvert, so all my talking to myself was done in my head; but it did give some relief to my stress.
Suddenly my phone rang, and on the other side it was this nice lady informing me about a job I had applied to about a month ago. I informed her I would happily attend the interview as I’m still looking for work as I’m still unemployed. So tomorrow I’m going to an interview in hope to finally catch a break and hopefully get some money rolling in again.
Crying for help on reddit showed to be very good indeed. I’ve been given some great advice and feedback on my CV. Tomorrow I’ll be rewriting and redesigning it. I didn’t plan to have a new version of the CV tomorrow, but because of my reddit post I’ve been asked to send out my CV for a new job; and based on the feedback I’ve been given, I think I want to send them the new CV instead.
I’ve also been drinking a lot of tea today. If I’m correct, I think I’ve had six or seven cups of tea today. Been staying a lot inside lately, because I’ve been worrying about the money and the weather haven’t been that good. I need to be more active. Get some fresh air and some sun light. I’ll be getting some of it tomorrow, as I’m taking the missus to the doc and later on going to the interview, and then back home to get my CV nice and purdy. Busy day tomorrow. Not too busy, but more busy than I’ve been in a while.
I might even go to bed early tonight, which is before 11pm. *gasp*
Note: And you probably know the deal about grammar and stuff. I’m too tired to care and I don’t get paid to do this, so stop nitpicking at my writing. *yawn*
Christie
10/11/2009
The morning’s start sounded horrible – enough to make your brain short-circuit in panic. But wow the Reddit CV help and the interview call really saved the day! Guess it’s early Tuesday your time now – so GOOD LUCK!!!! Hope the interview goes great and hope the job is yours if you want it!
xen
11/11/2009
My brain almost did short-circuit, but I managed, as usual.
I’m more or less finished with the layout on my CV, I just need to get the text done and everything will be ready. All made with open source software. :)
The interview went fine. :)
JW
13/11/2009
xen, I really empathize with you. I haven’t had a job for quite a while. My boyfriend works,so his income has managed to take care of everything, but I have been out of work for over a year. I really need a job because there are quite a few things that I want to do, and without a job, I can’t do much of anything. It really is a pain in the arse. I hope everything works out for you.
xen
13/11/2009
Thank you for your wishes.
I hope everything works out for you too!
It’s not the first time I’ve been in a situations like this; but it’s starting to get old, which is why I hope to be studying next year.