The freedom of doing nothing with your life.
Today I asked myself in all privacy a question that no one should never ask themselves. I asked myself ‘what the hell I am doing with my life’? It was of course an inevitable question. Who would not ask them self that after being unemployed for such a long time and probably will be missing out on being able to get a bachelor degree?
The irony is that I do not have any problems keeping myself occupied while hopefully waiting for a paying job; what stops me from starting a major personal project is that it will probably be never finished when I get a job.
In other words, I do not have the funds to actually do what I truly want to do.
I have three interests that I have been playing around with since I was a teen, and they are; writing, making electronic music and design. All of which can be done as a hobby, get a degree in at a school, excel in as a freelance or self-taught or any combination of these ways acquiring the needed skill to make it your living.
What has stopped me is that I could never sit down doing any of these things as I can not afford just suddenly ignoring that fact I do not have some magic source of money.
Making music would probably be the most interesting thing to do, but I do not have the equipment to do that. I am writing more or less daily in my blog, but I feel like doing something more than just writing a blog. I do have an eye for detail and design; but where do I start?
After staring at the screen for several minutes now I was just told by my writer’s block to stop writing.
2+2=5
