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Last year I wrote that my new year’s delusion for 2009 would be:

I will be more true to myself.

I will let you know what that short and cryptic sentence meant and how that went:

• Do what I want.
  I got married to an awesome Aussie Sheila. ;)
  We moved to Australia; which economically did not work out as expected, but still is heaps fun!
• Keep focus on me, and almost only me.
  I told a few employers to shove it as they did not respect me.
  I have become more assertive; I think.
  Refusing to get pushed around by family.
• Be a more outspoken vegan.
  That did not go so well as trying to get our life back on track (still trying) and getting sick and tired of extremist abolitionist vegans. I have reached the point where veganism is a completely personal choice; but heads do roll if that choice is not respected.
• Give introverts a stronger voice.
  I have tried doing that via a few articles and on Twitter and making more connections with fellow introverts. One of my articles seems to be very popular, which is good!
• Blog more!
  As usual that had a roller-coaster trip. I feel I am back on track by blogging more often.

That is how it all went. I feel pretty content about it. I did not fail in any of them, from my point of view, so I think I did pretty good.

I will still kind of live by what I said last year:

I will be more true to myself.

Of course, with a few different sub-definitions.
So here is what you have been waiting for, my delusions of 2010:

• Ink myself!
  When I was 16 I pierced my labret. Not to look cool, but to express my individuality.
  Now I am planning to get a tattoo; which I have thought about for several years now, and the motif I am getting feels just right.
• Write more!
  I mean of course blogging, but I feel I should look at it more as writing than just blogging. Blogging is the medium it is presented through; the action is writing. I will true even harder to improve my writing; but do not expect too much as I do it for free and because I like to write.
  (I might still have some typos, live with it!)
• Become more selfish!
  I know this sounds bad, but I still need to work on being more assertive and setting boundaries for people around me. I need to not be afraid of hurting people. In other words, I might get a bit more sarcastic from now on; so beware, and be nice.
  As I have preached endlessly to you all is that I have one life. I have no intentions on lying on my bloody deathbed regretting being told what to do even if I did not want to do it. That must be the worst feeling in your life; lying there, knowing you are dying and regretting your last 40 years or something.
  I feel it is wrong of me to refuse someone doing something they want; so why should I be forced to do something I do not want to do?
• Get my life back on track, no matter what it might cost!
  My job at TomTom was not a luxury job, but if I ignored the bad things I might have been able to climb upwards. Now I am in Oz and still without a job. That I will change! I will see if I can study by distance, but if that is not possible I need to look at any possibility; no matter what.
  Being a very flexible person that might just mean almost anything that will give new life to my career and future.
• Avoind online discussions!
  I am tired of debating with morons online. Some act like just because they can reach the whole world with their words they think they are intelligent. Debating online is also more of a pissing contest than an exchange of ideas.
  I hope that at least mid-2010 I will only take part in debates with intelligent people and completely ignore morons and trolls.

Well, those are my delusions for 2010. At least those I can think of. If suddenly get reminded of something I will add it; but I feel I have covered the most important things in my life, and the things that are actually attainable.
Did you like them?
What are your delusions?