Better late than fucking never jou kut
There is something unique with enjoying a smoke outside when it is raining. When ever I have smoked something smokeable and it rains, I get this very odd but nice calm feeling. Tonight I decided to roll a nice damiana spliff. Very mild and legal. Relaxing, but kind of boring — if I have to compare it to something else I enjoyed greatly when living in The Netherlands.
The first week at school went pretty quickly. Seems like I will be fine, but it is almost like I am in denial. Already have an assessment due in a week and I am very blasé about it. With that said, I learned pretty quickly that Tuesday and Wednesday will most likely be blog-free. Both days are full-days at school. Tuesday was the first day, probably in months, I was the one asking before 10pm if, “should we go to bed now?”
Decided to stay far, far away from alcohol the whole week. Managed fine. My alcohol indulgence during my holidays seemed to have zero effect on me. Oh well, time will tell I guess. Time will tell.
Went window shopping at the Apple Store today. Looking at what I can not afford but hope t afford in a few months or something. Interesting to see all these people with Arts degrees working as shop assistants. Talk about giving up on your dream. Just walking around in a shopping mall makes me realise I am lucky to still have some drive in me to have aspirations. An urge to follow my dream. Be a journalist that will only write the truth — as long it pays the bills. I do not mean to sound like a pretentious cunt, but you can not have any aspirations if you decide to end up as a shop assistant.
I had the same experience at Aldi today. Thought it would be a good idea to save some money, given we both are students. What a waste of time and petrol that was. How the store is “designed” is too pragmatic. To the point it makes you depressed. Feeling like going home, finding the biggest knife in your drawer, driving back and slitting your wrists to end your life there. We are both students, so it is pretty fair to call us poor. But the people at Aldi were that different kind of poor. The kind that has given up on life and has settled with living in squalor. Just hoping not to feel hunger until their final day comes. I have no intentions going back there ever again — only if I need to be persuaded to take my own life.
Still reading ‘Kingdom of Fear’. Yes, I am a slow reader. Bad habit of getting distracted. Managed to finish ‘Transmetropolitan’. Borrowed it of a friend. Really great comic if you like Hunter S. Thompson. Spider Jerusalem, even if he is a comic book character, is very inspirational to me. kind of the same way HST is inspirational. Not giving two tugs of a dead dog’s dick what other people think of you and only writing and speaking the truth! Gonzo style.
Time to finish this beer and troll da intartubes.
